Checking Into The Galaxy

so i've been so in love with the last poem i wrote: there ain't nothing new i've done that i haven't been too inspired lately to write any other entries. i like to give my best or nothing at all and so i'm searching the stream for information and inspiration for my next deluxe set of words. although i feel like i'm talking to myself here i know there are some of you out there that make your way through msisenther universe and gain some sort of audacity in the everyday society. i'm kind of joggling my interest right now and the craft that is acting has captivated my time as of now. my poetry is my voice that can never be shut off but i'm developing a hustle so that i can (quite frankly) support myself and my interest. this is a balancing act that i am attempting to perfect with time. don't look at my inability to post as neglect just comb thru the archives and i promise you that there will be some words in there for you until the next phase of poetry roles through. time management is the key to a productive life. and that is my wish for myself and you as i embark on this journey of success. peace.

-Janus Poeticca

There Ain't Nothing New I've Done

there ain't nothing new i've done
i've swam the beach
sang to my hearts peak in the church choir
been a mischievous teen
license at 16
lost my virginity too soon
see, nothing new
i've poured my beating heart on many a stage wondering where it would take me, even now
and there's much i haven't seen
i've been too confused and unfocused to make any real change in my life on many occasion
and my deepest years have been my search for direction
a dream no one could help me with
not even my mother
but now i choose to feel
though for many years my choice was numb
numb to the thought of happy trails but not wanting to succumb to a trail of tears
i fought for myself to be in this world anything i choose and it's a lot but it's me
a dream that only i can snatch away
cause i have given up on the possibility of love from anyone but myself
please forgive me but i am tired
yes at 27 i am tired of my heart being ripped apart by somebodies-whomever they may be-family or the person on the street
cause can't nobody love me like me
i do it the best
i am the best for the job
i wipe my tears
i reach for more and inspire myself to go on
and if this is the deepest page i ever write then feel me
cause this is me
standing before myself the judge
see, i can't be judged by you cause you are me too
and most times we don't want to admit that we are one in the same
so maybe this is something new i've done
new to me
no i didn't climb the highest mountain
or walk the gambia
loving myself in the light of day never once blinking or looking back or never needing anyone to say again: I Love You

-Janus Poeticca (breakthrough piece)