2008: a list

what happened this year? man, i don't even know. to me it didn't fly by too fast. i moved to a new state to pursue my dream life and learned some valuable life lessons along the way....

1. well i can't go without mentioning the biggest historical moment to me: Barack Obama! The first African-American President, wow. and it's funny i was talking to some people about this same issue 2 years ago and they thought a black man couldn't ever successfully run what they considered a white mans program. well, i guess we shall see how our country turns over in these next couple of years.
2. gas was to damn high this summer! i'll say no more.
3. ny giants won the superbowl, celtics won their championship & that's the most i know in the sports world, yay!
4. beyonce & jay-z finally got married. black love at it's finest!
5. can i say recession without making anyone depressed? but for those of us that are in that middle ground shouts out to you for weathering this financial storm. and from what i hear it's far from over.
6. iphone was re-released at a cheaper rate than it's introductory price and the cell phone wars began!
7. the olympics happened and the only thing we can remember is micheal phelps and his historic 8 medals. you go boy!
9. philadelphia became known as killadelphia. i'll say no more
10. we lost some greats: eartha kitt, issac hayes, bernie mac (& those two in the same weekend!), shakir stewart, paul newman, estelle getty, heath ledger, george carlin
11. mariah carey married nick cannon. as least she didn't have to change her initials!
12. britney made her comeback. whatever!
13. stimulus checks happened...holla! especially to those with kids i know those checks came through.
14. tina fey made sarah palin more of a high profile politician than she would have been just by being herself.
15. foreclosures hit a all time low.
16. lil' wayne & his lollipop became a phenomenon
17. the dream had a summer hit with "i love ur girl"

so in a nutshell that was really 2008. the scandals started to get cheesy and the true intentions of the world are more apparent: get money or you will be left behind!
so with that said my final words of the year to all: make your life what you want it to be. there is much to be seen and done in this world that has yet to be completed. we all have a role to play and within it all we fit. love yourself and you'll instantly realize there's more that you want in your life on many levels, but know that everything in life worth having is a fight to the finish because we all want the great american dream. cause at the end of the day money is the real superstar, we're just lucky to come in second if we get a chance to shine at all. PEACE.
HAPPY NEW YEAR & MANY BLESSINGS TO ALL!
-Janus Poeticca

Truth

i have this theory. and the theory is that the truth is often where you mostly don't want to look. how much of what we want to believe is actually true? are most of us walking around in denial of the truth because it's just way too harsh to accept? just something that crossed my mind today as i was thinking about time and how it works on us differently as living things. time is a reality that kind of just sneaks up on us. just think in a day when you may or may not be doing much how time just moves along regardless of what you're doing. and when it's all said and done time is still ticking.
tic-toc-tic-toc.
this new millennium decade is soon over and a new world is upon us. come 2010 we will be in a new decade. we forget that because we are having a tendency to group the whole 21st century together. but yeah it's not the same world it was just 8 years ago. technology is advancing the world and flattening it more than ever. i can feel a whole new reality approaching us as we continue on toward forever.
i am made to believe no one wants to hear the truth. it's too scary, too "real". my question is: does anyone care about preserving the essence of living anymore or is life all about the hustle and the pursuit of financial status? maybe i should be on that too. maybe i'm in denial of the realities of the world. i want more than that though. i want us to experience each other until we realize we are all the same with different languages and financial states. there's not too much that separates us humans but what we tell ourselves. the mind is the most capable asset in life. the mind can take you places near and far. if you believe it it's true. if you don't believe in something it's not true. this is my truth tonite, right now. and i'm signing off before i say too much more. peace.

-Janus Poeticca

Higher Self

how comfortable are you with your higher self? better yet do you even know what that is? who are you at your peak? in the zone? what can you really do? see that's when the haters are at their best. when they feel you are at your best shining bright. it's okay though, there ain't nothing new under the sun. the thing is we have to knock on that door within. your higher self is not going to jump out at you and just take over. you have to work her or him into existence with drive and determination. how far do you want to take this thing? it's your world...

-Janus Poeticca

People

friends
foes
hoes, you know
pros
they wear clothes
they fold and go
distant
far
near
wide
bright
bushy
unafraid in the night
people make the world go round
and in the meantime we watch each other live different and the same
we make our own calculations based on what we see
but do we ever really understand a person
what's on the inside of that heartbeat?
where does the soul lie?
people are the greatest creation to me
although most times i don't grasp ones own particular understanding
and i feel people choose to believe certain things about you especially when they are the furthest from the truth
it's funny
and much a shame
that people play such silly mind games
just say what's on your mind instead of misinterpreting spiritual chess
the back and forth rhythms make me dizzy on a daily
but i'll never stop exploring the hope that one day we will all be on the same page.

-Janus Poeticca

Real Love...

when will this love be over & the real love begins?

when will you share your true self with me?

don't give me what you think i want

all i want to do is find out who you are

we waste time with those fantasy games.

when will this love be over & the real love begins?

when i find out you want the same future i want

when i find we disagree on how to raise children and where we want to settle down

see, i like to take one day out of the week to rest and enjoy life, how about you?

i want to know what is beneath your skin.

when will this love be over & the real love begins?

when we meet each others family and realize we're actually made for each other

and the need to be out in the club every week is surely over

and the world as we knew it becomes a distant memory as we grow our devotion for one another

i'm ready for this

a love that's just for me

somehow i believe that i should always have hope

i want it to be you

i guess that's how love is

it just sneaks upon you when you least expect it!

Rest In Peace Eartha Kitt.

-Janus Poeticca

What I Refuse

i refuse to be silenced in this life
there is too much living to be ignored
i will not be quiet
while still pressing forward
i will not sit back as the world turns
i have watched, waited and prayed for my chance
to have my time in the light with loyal fans
so roll with me
and don't give up
my time is coming...trust!.

-Janus Poeticca

Christmas For Me

christmas for me
what does it mean?
what does it mean, christmas for me?
the lights
the trees
the snow
and you
a time for family
and happiness too!
hot cocoa, coffee, cider or tea
or maybe something stronger to get you thru
cause when you're around loved ones, who knows what they'll do!
fresh memories for lifetimes to share
i know you wish everyone could be there
but wherever you are just be happy to live
and think of what you want the new year to give
nothing is perfect even you
so be grateful for what you have near or far
it's not about the gifts
it's about the treasure of loved ones and the degrees that separate us
it's about experience
it's about rebirth
christmas to me, what does it mean?
well...it means being thankful for my life and love
Thank You Jesus for all of the inspiration to go on....

-Janus Poeticca

To My Bloggers...

this post today is for all my bloggers. i never realized the massive story that we as bloggers share. we dare to be seen by displaying ourselves so openly. i mean it's actually deeper than a myspace page because not only do we display our interest, favorite books, movies and songs but what's in our hearts and minds is in our blogs. wow, there is some real talent out there in the atmosphere! i am so glad to be apart of this with all of you. we will go down in history just for being bloggers. we can never be forgotten because we have put ourselves in position to not be ignored. the question is: whose profiles will rise higher? image grow bigger? that is the question. the hustle, who has it in them. anyone can do it, it's just a matter of who wants it more. well, good luck and safe travels to you all. whether you are on blogger to merely communicate or create a true career of this safe travels to you. whatever happens you made it this far because you dared for more out of life and that says something special about you already!

-Janus Poeticca

i am a bright reflection in space
my shine is a pastel color of the rainbow but add a deeper green, purple and pink
i move like the sun moves
slow but steady balancing the harmony of the universe
i am quiet
yet i need to be more like a booming sound
louder and more beastly
unlike the me that's on the outside
cause on the inside there is a cooking fire
ready to be seen as a beautiful spectrum of light
my rainbow
and it flows
like the ocean gliding wide reaching the shore

-Janus Poeticca

Renaissance Inspiration

i was so inspired to put this poem in today. i remember my cousin reciting this back in the day and i even gave my rendition at a family reunion one summer. i didn't really know the magnitude of what i was saying 'till it crept up in my memory today so i thought i would share with you. sometimes us black americans forget that we really can do anything. even though there may be opposition because our reality is misunderstood we still have to stand our ground knowing where we want to go in this life. so to all of my people out there feeling the struggle a little too long this is for you.

-Janus Poeticca

"...and tomorrow your nation will be what you want it to be..."

(look at Barack, thanks Countee)

Hey, Black Child

Hey Black Child
Do you know who you are
Who you really are
Do you know you can be
What you want to be
If you try to be
What you can be

Hey Black Child
Do you know where you are going
Where you're really going
Do you know you can learn
What you want to learn
If you try to learn
What you can learn

Hey Black Child
Do you know you are strong
I mean really strong
Do you know you can do
What you want to do
If you try to do
What you can do

Hey Black Child
Be what you can be
Learn what you must learn
Do what you can do
And tomorrow your nation
Will be what you what it to be

By Countee Cullen

So Good

yes i am so good
as long as i can see you hear you
touch you i am good
i did you wrong
i played with your heart an left you there waiting for me at your most vulnerable time
you forgave me and i know there is a GOD looking after me
cause you're still here
but didn't you know?
i was messed up on that stuff
the stuff that turns your brain toxic
i was strung out on life
on doing things my way
and forgetting that you were there loving me all along
silly me
strung out on freedom
i was too open-minded
but i have been to the equivalent of rehab-reality hit me!
and i'm so good now because i learned my lesson
thank you for loving me and all my selfish ways...

-Janus Poeticca

Oh. I Get It!

so, i've just taken a walk thru the blog sphere and i'm beginning to understand why my lil' ole blog isn't too popular. forgive me for not posting about name brands and high profile celebs while attempting to establish a solitary space for my own voice without the help of the current giants of the game. but it's okay because the ones that are getting something out of this blog good for you. and don't get me wrong i'm not condemning anyones personal taste. this isn't a entertainment blog. i would like to think of this as a spiritual wellness blog because i am a true believer of taking care of the mental and spiritual then everything else will iron out once your mind and spirit are on track. i'll get to the body part later-i'm still getting there myself! although you can't get mental and spiritual wellness from just anyone, oh no chile. see some people will have you gone nuts trying to get yourself together. you might even end up worse than you left off, but msisenther is here to get you to see your true self therefore becoming more comfortable and confident out in the big world. i don't try to push my beliefs on you i merely share them with you. i want us all to have what's for us as individuals. the main world doesn't want that. they just want 2 people to have it all while everyone else starves for a place in the sun. i think that if we live to our potential we will find that we inspire each other differently for different reasons and even though some may outshine others you still enjoy your place....

no more kisses...

you've kissed me enough

and now i want no more

i no longer enjoy the taste of your flesh upon my shoulder

at one time i thought i wanted to feel you forever

but now i want to be apart from you

i used to imagine our future

but to think about it i never really saw one, it was just my imagination running away on a whim

so don't be upset with me

i'm just growing up

growing apart from the youngin i used to be

i've had my time with you and now it's over-for real this time

no, for real!

no more kisses from you

(your breath stinks now-it probably always did but i never smelled it)

-Janus Poeticca

PC America

now even though i know why we americans are so pc right now i still can't help writing this blog today. i love to watch great sitcoms and very rarely now (or even at all) are there live audiences to watch the taping. that really bothers me because the live studio audience makes way for great energy and those moments on film or live create a wonderful dynamic for the scene. back in the days when we had the flip wilson, good times, i love lucy & martin shows they all had a live studio audience and you can see the fun they had when they messed up a line but kept it going after taking that comedic moment just to have a laugh. now the laughs are plugged in while editing and everyone's a diva or some sort of ego-driven talent that doesn't have to deal with people unless they're doing a paid appearance to feed their ego even more. gone are the days where we really deal with each other. everyone is just so cold. i'm starting to see that money is the real superstar and we are all slaves to it. i hope that one day we can once again laugh together and look at one another in awe and not have more of an emotional connection to our cell phones and gadgets but each other. it makes for a great community.

-Janus Poeticca

Poetry Declaration

poetry is my place even when i had yet to define myself
self inflicted mental pain caused action disasters all due to my stubborn frame of mind
but along this journey something stayed in me
whether it was the way i thought or moved i knew i would find my place under the skies night & day
on my most sorrowful night's it was poetry that cleansed my soul and kept me optimistic of what dreams may come
and as i continue to be human and live out loud i now have my point of view, my voice....
and it's a beautiful poetic melody...

-Janus Poeticca

Popular Music

popular music ain't for me
nope
you got to give me some underdog music like jazz, hip-hop, be-bop and r&b
no popular music ain't my cup of tea
you see it robs me of my rhythm
my black rhythmic self can't function without a deep drum
i've tried popular music for about 6 years and you know what it did to me?
it made me insecure, scared to be sexy in public for fear of the wrong moves
it took away my mind and had me confused on my own nationality
had me focused on the wrong thing all the time while the world was tumbling down
all the while making musicians rich off my ignorance
it corrupted me
yes, popular music did this to me
so i had to say good-bye
and i haven't looked back since
('cause it's a circus and i don't turn no tricks)


-Janus Poeticca

Big Bird .vs. Chicken (Double Standards)

question: if you like big bird (yes the sesame street big bird!) is it okay to love the taste of chicken? just something that got me thinking today as i notice some well-adapted double standards we as americans continue to perpetuate. you know what i'm talking about;things like celebrity crimes. if we like them enough we chose not to see the reality of what they really did because their larger-than-life endeavors are so great (now that just may be denial but we'll play it as a double standard today), or things like the kkk .vs. the black panthers or even the naacp. obviously the kkk see their hate spreading as some sort of power trip to keep their race at a bias understanding whereas the naacp and the black panthers were merely trying to save face amongst the hate that was spread upon us in the struggle for civil justice. what i'm saying today folks is that it seems as though we choose to believe in things in order of convenience for our personal struggles. we all have issues that we have to fight on a daily basis and double standards seem to allow us to go with the flow on some of these issues. i wonder where exactly this is going to lead us. i'm not telling anyone what to believe in today i'm just venting. it really did just start out with me seeing big bird today on the tube and thinking about how much i enjoyed him growing up and what his consistent happiness did for my heart and then i thought: my, how i love the taste of chicken! so it got me going on how all of the things we so dear enjoy and cling to have another side to be answered to on a diplomatic level. what do you think out there?

-Janus Poeticca