don't overlook

life sure can be a crazy journey. it can pick you up and put you down in places that you never thought imaginable. the funny thing is once out of the comfort zone we [then] begin to see things that have always been there but we never gave a chance because of the jaded state of mind we became accustom too out of shear ignorance of space and time. what exactly does that realization tell us? OPEN YOUR EYES. see, experience, feel. touch, taste, smell. life is for the living indeed. the worst thing a living thing could do in my opinion is not enjoy the glory that life can be for you, not enjoy the gift of discovery and possibility. its surely about being around individuals that make you better, happier, stronger. it's not about accepting those that suck the life out of you which enables us to spin in a vicious cycle that tangles us in and out of inevitable experiences just to allow us to see the mistakes. that's why they say "you can't see the forest from the trees". you really can't if you're stuck in a dark place. go toward the light. follow your heart. it will never steer you wrong...& it ain't easy but i say: let God's will be done.

-Janus

"this is chess, not checkers"*

ahhh board games. weren't they fun growing up? a little monopoly, operation, connect 4, even pick-up stix, and of course checkers! these cute games aimed to occupy our youth with friends and family creating bonds of friendly competition. they were harmless and fun. and then you have chess, yes chess. the war game. who can capture the queen and kill the king to now claim the title? i'm starting to see life as chess. i've always believed in the similarities. who are the pawns in my life? those that are on the front lines for me that can kill or be killed? who is my right hand? my bishop, knight, rook? and i could even turn it around on myself: how am i protecting my king? is he exposed or securely preserved from the opponent? it's crazy. i think chess is a game that we all should play. it helps create strategy, planning ahead, discernment. oh yeah baby....."this is chess not checkers".
*quoted from denzel in training day

-Janus

milestones

so the dictionary describes milestones as a significant event in your life. but what if its deeper than that...like say overall character, depth or even the inevitable that makes you the person you are. in life we come to these places we never thought we could be. these places can be physical, emotional, spiritual, circumstantial. but what happens is we are in that particular moment and we are faced to deal with what's going on. i'm forever the optimist, i always believe that something is to be understood from all the debris and chaos that's left over. and that's where the milestone comes in. that is what's left! this memory, this circumstance that will forever be apart of your heartbeat. and what is the one thing that brings it to life? the senses of course! God is cleaver. that song, that smell, that outfit, that drink, or that place on your body that only that person has touched. wow....how sweet it is. and at the end of the day all you can do is keep living & keep experiencing the life that God has given you.

-J

new dawn, new day...i guess

yeah so here we are. 2012. a time in life that never dawned on me until now, until this present moment. just celebrated another birthday. which can be tricky for most people; birthday's that is. now maybe it's just because mines is at the end of the year but i look at birthdays as a renewal, an opening of newer possibilities, point of views and ways to live. i believe that in life we should continue to be on the upward move no matter how slow the climb. but that's just me. i'm learning the importance of planning. it just helps the day to day have that much more meaning in the overall big picture; if i'm doing this i can accomplish what i need to, if i'm doing that which i don't need to do i won't get very far. but at the end of it all there is you. no matter what happens. the relationship we carry on with ourselves takes on so many meanings as we grow. we always have to make sure home base is in tact or else the whole operation can become faulty very quickly. and of course it has everything to do with loving yourself, the whole reason i created this blog. trust me, there is so much power in doing that simple thing.....

-Janus

time to live...

its time to step into the light, get hot but not burn
its time to be myself
the self ive dreamed of for long enough
it time to dive in and be original and proud of my commitment to excellence
its time to live




-Poettica

Sighhhh, Breath of Fresh Air

well it has been a while and i suck for not leaving posts of my experiences. i just went through so many ups and downs these last couple of weeks i didn't want to come off like a lunatic! but i'm a firm believer in my faith and the power of the creator of all things so here i am back and steady on the grind. life is indeed a marathon. what lap are you on?

Poeticca

i walk in the spirit of the Lord
i breathe with the Kingdom in mind
the future used to scare me
but i am forever secure in the arms of God

Poeticca

I Feel

today honestly i feel like sharing a prayer with you. although it seems to be a personal thing i've become very attached to the act of prayer. it strengthens me in my times of high & low circumstance but most of all it keeps me grounded knowing as much control as i have that much i shall be willing to give to the Lord in order for it to be multiplied. i'm also in a spirit of gratitude. thankful that i'm fitting into my skin and feeling great about that. now how is it that we can go all of these years in our bodies but never feel completely comfortable in our skin until a certain point in life? well i guess it's your growth process. doesn't that affect everything? we learn a lot as we grow into our maturity. then we realize all of the foolishness we've put ourselves thru out of sheer ignorance. life....it sure is a course in itself, right? but i sure can't get enough...

Poeticca

Where do we go From Here??

at some point in life we come to a state of change. state meaning it has to happen or else. or else life becomes this never ending same story. how many of us recognize the moment? well i'm at that very moment and i'm so thankful that i am aware of the energy that it takes to drive oneself into the promised land. so i'm reading 2 books at the moment but the one book that i'm really sinking into is the think & grow rich by napoleon hill. awesome indeed! a must read for the heavy thinkers out there that believe in the idea that mental strength is the key ingredient of a successful personality. wow...i can't believe ole J is growing up. i have to look to the higher ground in order to reach my higher self that i so desire to achieve in my lifetime. and many of the things that sustain me no longer keep me at bay and i know that it will never change. life is ever changing. once we know we know we know nothing. make sense? you might have to read that again with the inflections intended. so here i go back into the wilderness and as i come and touch back to the universe and communicate how us earthlings function let us become harmony when we meet face to face...

P.S. change is inevitable

Poeticca

The World Keeps Spinning...

so much to do, so little time. that's what they say right? well i guess it's all about perception. we have to get "it" in whenever we can. whatever "it" is that you want to see materialize in your world. all i know is that i'm really loving life. with so much going on and these so-called experts telling us how to live our daily lives i find it extremely entertaining and decide right then and there to develop my own method of concentration. and that's our responsibility to ourselves: seek out and find our own method of happiness. we have got to stop allowing popular consensus to come in and reprogram us over and over again based on the idea that if we follow this brand and follow that brand then we are a certain type of person that needs to follow something in the first place. we have to remember that america is "the land of the free home of the brave". we are rebels that make good on our hustle cause it's in our hearts. i believe that every american is a hustler, we all just tap into it at different levels of the game. but we all can agree that if you want to see anything go down in this country you have to bark, pounce & bite to make it happen. so to my fellow americans and players abroad: fight the good fight cause there ain't nothing new under the sun...

Poeticca

Hey Yourself

well it's been a while since i've traveled into the universe. i've been secretly devising a master plan to take over hollywood and broadway. first off i would like to say that i give props to all of the people that have made a name for themselves in the game. in any game you choose to play. anything worth having is surely not easy and the business of entertainment can be a very tough cookie to cut but with time one does develop the guts to drive into glory. so i would just like to shout out the hustlers and the innovators out there that dare to dream and make that dream, whatever profession it is. and i would like to thank God for the fact that i'm personally able to pursue after my own heart. well until next time kids....

Poeticca

The Reigning King Of Music

well it's been a task trying to live in the world without the King of Music Michael Jackson. we lost a great one and what we should learn from this event is that when it's our time it's our time. but here's my personal tribute to the king: hello Michael Jackson. while there are so many memories to share about you and your imprint on my generation i'll just say that dancing to your tunes with my big sister is what i remember most vividly. your music was truly out of sight and no matter the time it's always in fashion. as an artist i have learned the power of surrendering oneself in the art and allowing that to bring sensation to others. you have left behind a monster of a legacy and forever will you reign in the art you most loved. your heart was a loving giving heart like no other. as one reporter said,"there's Michael Jackson and then there's everyone else". 'nuff said! -J *Long Live the King

Where I'm @ Right Now...

...playing dead to attract the dead
i fell and died but chose to live again
see, one day my body will be in a coffin so i gotta make my world right now
i gotta make my life right now cause there ain't no: start over it didn't work out!
this is life and real things happen
this is life and sometimes things don't work
but you gotta make it work
where my hustlers at? innovators that dare to be mislead?
are you free?
or are we all bound to a literal limit-filled hereafter where the sun only shines when someone reminds you
can i live?
can i have life?
or is this sweet american dream just a nightmare we all must face and conquer in order to reap the benefits of her harmonious tune?
i sing
but it's not always a song full of grace
but of love, patience, meekness, movement & an existence of peace
my heart sings for the world not to move so fast that we never capture the moments that make living the greatest....

Poeticca

Something New...

...brandy get ya gap back*
star get ya fat back
black stars get ya black back
you too commercial stop that
and that's a fact.....

*excerpt from a new piece

the inevitable has happened
my change has come
praise GOD

Poeticca

If I Never Picked Up The Crown

if i never picked up the crown what would the world be?
how could it live?
what would it see?
if i never picked up the crown how would you know?
which way to try, push, grow?
if i never picked up the crown i would never see the world
the world i've imagined since a baby girl
where i don't have to wish just dream then open my eyes and see
if i never picked up the crown too many questions would go unknown
i would die never to have experienced life full grown
if i never picked up the crown nothing would ever change
first in my life, then yours and the world
we would get used to things as they are and would know of nothing else
shake things up is what i must do
change this politically correct bullshit thru & through
avant garde should be the standard of life
unwritten but driven then a successful life
it's okay to be different so why are we told to be the same?
please pick up your crown too and find me in the maze

Poeticca

Oh, That's Why We're Crazy

we must lie to ourselves daily
oh, that's why we're crazy
we must make ourselves believe the untrue in order to further our lucrative advances
we must deny our smile to a parade unlike our kind
yet we wonder why looking in the mirror is a new view every time
we be crazy cause we gotta change this heart, the only heart we know
we gotta change it to advance and grow
no mo' 'fros until you don't need that corporate check! (check...)
we see green when each other bounce the block
we be crazy cause we cannot see the end
we be crazy cause we fight within
we be crazy cause there is no end
to the chase of dream & big diamond
crazy trying to fit the mold
crazy watching self grow old
crazy wondering why a no go
crazy when dead and gone be the end though
crazy don't have to be all we are
cause there's a choice to be who you are
no one can tell the grass to grow
but fertilizer changes the direction though...
crazy...

Poeticca (i'm a bad mutha$%*#!)

$50 in June

i'm standing outside your door
i will not be ignored
i want more
and i want it from you
what more can i do, i have to bug you
i need to get through this time
i can't let this moment pass
for if i do that's my ass
and i'll never forgive my own stubbornness
so i'll continue to wait and wait some more
only now i'll have more
to show and prove i have learned the lesson you are trying to teach me
when they speak of recession many people have a different definition
so maybe we will never see eye to eye on this
we all have a personal relationship with money
and since i chose to not make it funny my options become slightly thin
so there are most things i have to accept
but at this point i will not allow my story to be a gross of $50 in june
cause i am way too talented for that!

Poeticca

I Must Change

after a long hard battle within i have learned
i must change my colors
after a long hard debate with love i have learned
i must change my colors
after a war over circumstances i have learned, again
i must change my colors
i must change myself from the self i have become
unconscious, beastly and challenging i must be
not yielding and unwise open-minded and blindly free
what is this world doing to me?
i change often just to learn i must change again often
will i be assumed to change forever right after i am comfort fit in the new me?
i remember being told that to be fully aware and awake was to be constantly thrown out of the nest
so i guess nowhere is home

-Poeticca Lives

The Soul's Disguise

same faces, new look
for a while my soul you took
so i tried hate on for size
it didn't fit so i chose the prize
difference is i decide who wins
no one else, just me within
and it bothers me that everyone wants to look weird but maintain a sense of normalcy
can we really have it all?
or just whatever we can have for the moment
what separates the winners from the rest?
i guess it's the ability to disguise

-Poeticca Lives

The Journey Begins

i am sick of being bed ridden with the fear of living unconscious
my consciousness is choking me quicksand fast so this moment is of great urgency
i've found myself deep in the jungle at a stand still trying to release my fears so this moment is of great urgency as well
and as i sit in this place knowing of the decisions to come i still can't help but to ask why?
knowing that word screams of weakness to any warm circumstance
i remember being a young girl first baptized by the poetic language and how special and free it made me feel
like i was cascading through the pacific eyes closed, heart free and open with a naive state of mind never thinking of the next moment
flip to the present, where poetry has become my map, my compass especially during the dark times just attempting to find the golden arch of the overgrown melodrama that the journey brings
and yet in poetic tone i still escape the hardships of my direction
knowing the road could never be easily laid
but i can imagine sometimes that i had a pimped out package to begin
and yet this is life
the thing i have been trying to define forever since the 1st opposing force knocked me out
i have dedicated my lifes work to make it so i would never feel that again
i now know i should have never stopped feeling the blows
cause it gives me material
and as i am a flesh and blood circumstance i will rise
i will not be encompassed by self-consciousness and fear in any land under my feet
cause i have chosen my resting place and it's at the top of the mountain

-Poeticca