Do You Remember???

for those of you that have gone thru your first milestone hump of life how did it feel? do you remember the day? these milestones are different for all of us. for the most part it's that time when you realize all you really have is yourself and one has to make decisions based on that alone in a way that doesn't alienate your loved ones. it's not a sad thing, really it's just the way that life takes us. we all come to this understanding at some point and we all deal with it in different ways. we put so much pressure on ourselves to be great because of what it looks like on the outward all the while we have no understanding of the layers that build up to the ultimate destination. that is the mountain. once over the mountain we realize that we've had the "stuff" the whole time but we didn't use it because it didn't "look" or "feel" how we thought it would based on popular consensus. that's just where we were in our minds. now that the first test has been won there will be others and it will take layers to get over those also. that, my friends, is the carnival of life. welcome to the woods. _Janus